Today was the first live episode of Clash for Cash ... i have always been excited about that day for one reason .. for you to be happy for me, and to be proud of me. i'm extremely sad that this day came at a time where we r not talking to each other. Although i didnt get some good luck wishes from you (ma3 2enno i sent you 2 SMS) .. but i cant but say that i knew that you were wising me luck all the time .. because everything went great .. the episode was amazing, and everyone loved it .. and the people at NBN loved it soo much and they were so happy with the result .. and guess what .. they told us that we got 3 times more calls than the first episode of Al Forsa taba3 Tony khalife .. and we didnt even do any promotion for the program ....

i'm happy cuz we did a good job .. but i'm really sad because now i know how it feels when i do somehting great and i dont have you to share it ... i dont have you to be happy for me .. i dont have you to hear the words, mabrook 7ayete .. ya3tik el 3afie 7abibi .. i swear to god its a very bitter feeling ... i can never be totally happy with anything i do if you werent beside me ...

beofre the episode i was soo stressed .. not because of the episode .. not at all .. but because i was really feeling bad that i couldnt hear your voice or get an SMS from you .. i was feeling so bad .. so guilty .. so down ... i swear to got i was looking at my phone every 2 miuites to see if you sent me any SMS ... bas nothing

I hate doing somehting good without you being with me .. because it will taste bitter ...

i really hope that we'll get the chance to celebrate this in some other better time ...


love you loads. . (k)