7ayete i want to be fair .. in the last post i was so negative .. i only talked about the bad things, the things that hurt me .. i might have made you feel like everything u do hurts me .. this is not true ..

rahsa u did great and amazing things to me .. and i'm not someone who forgets good things .. bil3aks .. i'm someone who is ready to forget all the bad things as long as they dont keep happening again and again ..

Rasha i know how much you love me .. and  i know how much you trust me .. and i know that what you did to me you wouldnt have done it to any other guy. i know how special i am to you. And one of the nicest things you ever did was starting this relationship ... girls usually never start a relationship .. they always wait for the guy to take the first step .. but i'm sure that you trusted me so much to take that step by yourself

I always feel happy when you take me to visit your family members .. when you made me talk to your dad when he did an operation .. the same with your grandpa when he was at the hospital ... all those things tell me one thing, that you really trust me and that you love me, and that you want all your family to know about us, and to bless our relationship. ANd be sure that the happiness i get from you wanting your family to know about our relationship is MUCH MUCH stronger that the sadness from you not wanting the people to know about it.

Do you remember when we were sitting in dunes and you told me "ma tkhaaaf ... ana 2elaaakkk ow bas" ? I know 3000% that you meant it from your heart .. and i really feel so good and safe whenever i remember it ..

Remember when we were walking with ghazal in Hamra street and you told me " u know ali that you are the first guy whom mom lets me go out with" ... ya3ni hon ana 7asset 7ale badde teer ... cuz it really means a lot when parents trust their daughters partner

When we went to jbeil .. it was amazingggggg .. i couldnt belive it when you told me .. lets do it .. without telling mom .. i really felt that you love me sooo much and that you are ready to do anything just to be with me ...

Whenever u come to my room .. i know how much you love me .. because 7ayete i know you .. you are not a girl who would just go to a guys room keef ma ken .. i know innik ma bta3te wej lal shabeb ... bas heik when you came to my room .. i forgot that its my room .. i felt like its our heaven .. i imagined that this is our room in our future house ( akid mish 7a ykoon manzara heik ) ... i was like WOOWW .. rasha is making me feel soo special and sooo loved by staying at my room .. she could have just told me la2 ma badde ... it just showed me how much you trust me more than any other person. This is not to mention men we made out on my bed for more than 30 minutes ... should i say that whenever i try to remember those moments, i even doubt if they were true or not? Whenever i remember them i think ... WOW WOW WOW .. Rasha really loves me from her heart .. and trusts me blindly to just come to my room .. lie on my bed .. and express her love to me physically.


and be sure 7abibte i will never abouse this trust .. because it means a lot to me, and i never want to lose it .. because trust is one of the things that once lost ... it never comes back ...

How can i also forget our day at Habtour ... how can I forget how you started talking about me and saying that i'm your fiance! This word was one of the best words i ever heard from you .. it is still echoing in my ears till today ... i can still hear you saying "khatibe" ... oh my god how it feels ..

I still remember when we were sitting in Sanyoor Resturant in Kaslik .. and you were wearing the extremely sexy pink top I got you from the USA .. and you were telling me that you have many more sexy tops and u'll wear them only for me, not for anyone else ... at that time i felt like hugging u and kissing you and telling you .. thanks 7abibte for loving me this much ... and remember how diring that night you were always around my arms, or lying on my chest or on my shoulder .... all these moments mean alot to me, and they prove to me how much love you have for me deep inside your heart.

Another thing that shows me how much you REALLY love me is how you dont mind eating anything after i bite it, or using my spoon. Especially that i remmeber you saying that youget really disgusted and you wouldnt even eat after your father ... halla2 akid if the two lovers french kiss .. then akid mish lezem ye2rafo Bas that means alotttttttt alott to me ...


7ayete remember when you asked me to get your book from printing? I directly thought .. come on .. rasha never showed me anything from her book .. and now she is asking me to get it from the printing. I dont know what were your intentions at that point .... it should have been one of two .. either you did that on purpose and you wanted me to take it and read it and feel special for being the first person to read it ... or you just trusted me alot and you couldnt imagine another person getting it other than me. i'm sure that both would make me feel VERY special ... but to me .. i took the second option .. i got your book ... i opened it .. i flipped the pages very fast just out of curiosity to see how it looks from inside .. then i closed it and kept it in my closet. I didnt want to lose the pleasure of reading it directly form the final book.


And one more thing that means ALOT to me ... remember during the week of Jbeil's trip ... when you were at my room .. apparently you saved the password of your MSN on my computer .. i didnt notice it when you did it .. bas later on i was surprized that it was saved .. i thought you did it by mistake .. and when i told you about it .. you told me la2 3ade ... you did it on purpose ... a happiness pill wouldnt have made me as happy .. this was pure trust dripping from your words ... i really want you to know that this means a lot to me

The birthday surprize you did to me in Nabatiyye was amazing .. i was really speechless infront of you love .. and i was VERY sure that if you had more time, and if we were closer to eachothe ryou would have done something much more special .. but i swear to god that it was very very special the way it was, especially with out very first french kiss ever ... this was the best gift i ever got .. and did you notice 7abibte that it's you who gave me the first kiss on the lips ? it was when we were in elida's car .. and it was you who started with our first french kiss .. in your car ( i wonder y its all in cars .. hehe ) .. but 7ayete this means a lot to me ... it means to me SOOOOO much when you take such steps .. whenever i remember them i feel how much you really love me, and you are ready to give me your soul .. not just your lips ...


7abibte those are just few of the MANYYY great things you did to me .. few of the MANY lovely moments you gave me .. i just want you to know that i will never forget them .. and i will NEVER forget how much special i am to you .. and how much trust and love you are giving me .. and i'm sure .. and i h ope that all this love will not disappear for meaningless reasons. People usually get really hurt when they lose their love for serious reasons, like difference in religions, living in different countries ... family problems ... keef iza they lose their love for meaningless reasons that can simply be solved by talking over things.


I never want to live without your love ... cuz in that case i wouldnt even call myself LIVING! You might tell me .. Ali .. be realistic .. you lived 20 years without me ... halla2 jeye titfalsaf ... i tell you that people might live tens of years thinking that they r living fine, but when they try a better life, they know how miserable they were living ... you are like a drug .. that when i took it, i cant live without it anymore, but the difference is that drug addicts can get cured from drugs (after os of suffering) .. but be sure that YOU are my cure .. and that without u my life will be sick ..


I'm so happy to notice that this post is longer than the previous one .. i love you so much ... and i need you just as much ..and i want you to notice how many of the things i mentioned about are small details that maybe you wont think that they make a difference to me .. but in fact they really do ...


I'm sure no girl will ever doo all what i said above unless she really loves and trust her guy ... and a girl who does all this cannot one day come and say "sorry .. its true that i loved you .. but i discuvered that i am mistaken" ... you cant say that because people mistake by doing BAD things .. you never mistake by doing good things .. and you never mistake by expressing your love.


I adore you my angel .. and i would never want to die without you being by my side and holding my hand.