Everythings comes to an end, and here is the trip to USA ending. I have lots of mixed feeling, i'm so happy because i've gained lots of experience, met new people, had lots of fun .. i'm so sad because i'm leaving people whom i have spend with them 6 weeks, 24 hours a day, i've never ever spent this much time with the same group of people. EVeryday i wake up with them in my face, i walk, go to class, eat, play, swim, and they are in my face, no i am leaving them all. i'm also sad because i'm leaving the USA, the county which all people dream to come to .. here i came to it, but i cant stay. I'm so thrilled to come back and see you, and see all my friends and share alll my happened with me. Í'm so afraid because now the serious life has begun, i have to start creating my own life, my own work, my own identity. I'm so nervous because i'll have to see you after all this long time, how will we first see eachother? will we be able to spend enough time.. will we be able to express our love, and to express how much we missed eachother. I'm so excited to see you .. to hug you, to kiss u, and to give you all what i got you. everything i got you means A LOTTT to me, more than you can imagine, they are what made me feel that you are close to me, they are what made me feel that you are with me in every step i go, they are what made me imagine that you are holding my hand and we are buying things together, belive me 7ayete, they are much much much more than just materialistic gifts, its not about their money value, its about what they mean to me. I wanted you to feel that you have been with me in every step i took, i didnt want to go to a place without getting you something form there, even if it was very simple. I hope u'll feel all thoe feelings i had when i give you all the stuff.

ive never ever felt the need that i was someone specific to stay with me, but i'm having that feeling with you, i want you to be with me every moment and every second. I dont know if i said that to you, but usually i dont get attached to people, i dont miss friends, i dont miss my family, i never get homesick, but with you its VERYYY different, belive me !! I can feel it deep inside me, i can feel every cell in my body missing you, i miss your voice, your hands, your body around my arms, your hugs, your kisses, and most of all ... your LOVE ...

after few hours i'll be back in Lebanon, and all what i will be wishing in that moment is being able to give you all what i experienced on this trip, i wish that i'll be able to collect all the money needed i can share every single moment i experiences, i want to pass them all again, but this time with you.

i love you 7abibte ... alottttttttt