The moment I knew about Ahmad's bad situataion, the first thing that came into my mind was YOU! I started thinking, how will i tell you, how will you react, i hate seeing you depressed

Now that ahmad has left us, i'm sure that you feel so bad about that .. I was thinking ... Rasha could have been one of those people who have died, I started thinking like you, why did they all die, but Rasha didnt. Could it be because god wants you to stay for me? is it because i loved you so truely, and god gave you back your health as a gift for me, and you?

I know that it feels so bad seeing all those close people leaving us, and imagining that you could have been one of them, today while translating your answers, especially the last one where you mentioned rony,fatima,hussein and ahmad, i felt like i am thw one writing it, and all of a sudden i felt the tears all over my face.

You know what .. i came up with the solution for the problem of you feeling guilty because they all died and you got cured .. What about thinking it in the opposite way .. this life is so bad, so miserable, filled with problems, so god gave those people the privalage to go to a better place, filled with peace. And he chose you so stay in this life as a challenge for you ..

Isnt this a better way to look at it? heik you shouldnt feel guilty, cuz they got what is better than life, they got heaven ..

and please please 7ayete, never wish that you died with them, cuz this makes me feeeelll soooo bad i'm sure you dont want to die and leave me miserable for the rest of my life ..

love you soo much, and i promise to stay by you .. belive me .. i just want to hope that the death of all those people wont just make you "feelingless" towards death, and when i die you wont feel anything

i adore you 7ayete, stay there 4 me