After our phone call last night,you got mad at me, and i got those two messages from you :

Do you know what,i thought u r the last one to hear from him that. and this showed how much far we are. Thank you for understanding and respecting my feelings!

Do you know what, am sick of your "talk thing" i like being free and i miss it, so plz get out of my life!

You sent those two TOUGH messages after i told you that you are not supposed to stop studying for your exams, and that you have to try your best, even if that needed lots of energy. But seems that you are sick of the talk thing..

anyways, FORRRTUNATEELYY, i got used to you 7abibti, ya3ni i admit that this is the FIRST time i get such messages, and one of them is a dumping message, and i dont cry, i didnt even feel tensed, i was just a bit bothered. I knew that i shouldnt reply, and what you said means nothing of what you just feel. And what i felt was perrrfectly true. The next morning i got this message from you:

Yesterday I asked u to get out of my life, but i missed that you are my life, sorry i need u and love u more than my life.

Okay now this message made me cry. I wonder if whenever i want to hear such loeing words i have to make you dump me ? lol

anyways, rasha, after your two messages last night, i was planning not to send any message, not to call, and not to miss call. I wanted to make your wish of " me getting out of your life, and letting you free " come true. I even thought about ignoring your calls and messages, but i thought that this will get you mad again from me, so i thought that it's not a good thing to do.

Rasha, i was not bothered when u said "get out of my life" as much as i was bothered when u said " I like being free and i like it".

Rasha am I really making you feel trapped into something? DO you really miss being free? I never thought that i am controlling you in any way  Rasha, 7bibti, please please please, be clear with me once, and let me know, if you really think that leaving eachother would make u live happier, would make a better person of you, would give you more chances in life. Then please, just let me know that, and i'll be happy to disappear from your life ( although i dont promise you that you'll disappear from mine).

I'll be miserable to live away from you, but i'll be happy to know that you are happy. I've always felt sad when you are sad, and happy when you are happy. SO if you think being away from me will make you happy, then please tell me, and we'll go for it. To hell with me being hurt for few years, i just want you to be the happiest girl on earth.

ANd by the way, sorry for all the "talk things" i'll make sure not to bother you with my supportive talks. Cuz i know, at the end they are just talks, they change nothing. Sorry

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ! ANd day after day i'm loving you more and more (k)