I really dont know how to start .. or what to say, although i bet that this entry will be the longest one.

Is it really over? Is my angel rasha no more the girl with cancer ? no more the girl who have to go to the hospital every now and then? Well.. YES ! I hope so. I'll just start by being a bit realistic. I know that this is not the FINAL FINAL result, but i really hope it is, and i will go on with everything as if it IS the final result. And nshalla soon we'll both hear the final result t ogether

 So .. seems the end of "The Rose" is starting to become real. my angel is getting cured. My angel has been strong, and faught the disease. She has been stronger than all the negative feedback she heard, she has been stronger than all the pain she faced during the therapy, she has been stronger than every negative thought that has passed by her mind, she has been stronger than everyone who tried to make her doubt that she will be cured, she had been stronger than all those devils who tried to make her belive that living with cancer is a very hard thing to do, yes, this is my angel, this is Rasha, THE GIRL I LOVE, and the girl who loved me back. The girl who has always made me feel proud of myself being with her.

You are not the one who was tried to be decived by people. I have also heard many painful things that tried to weaken my love towards you, things that tried to make me belive that it's not worth being with you, things that said that I shouldnt take this risk, things that said that i am doing everying for you 3al fade cuz, according to them, sooner or later you will die. The sentence that i heard million times during the past 5 months was " SHu baddak bi hal shaghle "

WHAT THE HELL ! Ya3ni the person saying that wont die masalan ? we all will die, i will die, he will die, everyone will die, should this be a reason not to love? not to care? not to be attracted? I was stronger than all what i heard from those people, i didnt even think of that. i NEVERRRR, and trust me rasha, i NEVERRR had a second thought about loving you, i NEVERR thought that what i am doing to you now will go without any benefit for me. WHat i heard from those people made me stronger every time, and everyone was amazed by how much i love you, and how much i am attached to you.

Other things that i have heard from close people, including zaven, is that Rasha is passing through a critical stage, and she doesnt really love you, she just needs someone to love her, and to take care of her, and that you will start forgetting me, and caring less about me just as soon as you pass this stage.

Again, i didnt belive this all, i know that you love me because you love me. And yes, ma fiha shi, you need someone to take care of you, i need someone to take care of me, and i'm sure that even when you pass this stage you'll still love me just as much.

My angel is now cured, the Rose has opened as i promised. I hope that my love to you helped with that, a bit at least. I cant claim that it did, you have to be the one who decides. I can just hope that i did my job in a good manner during the few months that passed. I admit that it was hard. I never had any experience in locing a girl, and in taking care of her, and when it came, it came to an extreme, i have to care for a girl who is passing throught the worst stange (hopefully) in her life. that was REALLY A HARD TEST of love! I hope that i passed it, although i never studied for it, i just had to do one simple yed hard thing, to feel, or let me say, to LOVE.

I really never felt anything hard from what has passe, Well, yes, i was hurt at many times, by my love was stronger. And aslan, even being hurt is a sign of love. A person who doesnt get hurt when he hears bad things is a person who is not truely in love.

I have loved you every moment, and i have belived you, and belived in you every moment. Rasha, if you were to die TOMMOROW .. i would have still loved you the same way, i swear. I would have still worked hard on caring for you, i would have still got you gifts, and made you enjoy your time. Love is not only about the future, and it's not only about what will happen later on, it's also what is happening NOW. A person needs to love, and be loved till the last moment of his life.

I'm so proud of you rasha .. i now have proved to all people that the girl i love is STRONG, my love and care didnt go for no reason, i still have to prove that you will stay with me even after you got cured, and I'm SURE that we'll be able to prove that soon enough to eveyone.

7amdella 3al saleme 7abibti, and hope that the stage that passed would be the hardest stage in your life. I hope that all our next days will be filled with love and happiness. I hope that all our dreams will come true, let's dream SOOOOOOOOOO much, so incase just 10% of our dreams came true we would have accomplished "SO much" .. this is what i belive in. ANd belive me 7ayete, if it wasnt deep in your heart the beleif that you will be cured, it would have never happened for things to happen they have to start from inside us, nothing comes from nowhere.

for the tenth time I say, i am proud of you, and i'll always be proud of you, and i'll ALWAYS love you.

Good luck in your exams, i'm sure you'll pass, and i'll be more and more proud of my ANGEL.

I ADORE YOU !