Only god can know how bad I feel. How bad i feel about a mistake that I ddint even do. A mistake that was out of control. A mistake that i thought you will understand, because you love me, and you understand me

You did give me three chances to be with you today, tab i wasnt able, i had to stay with my family, cant u understand that i really want to be with you every moment?  If i cant, this doesnt mean that i dont want!

I was really bothered by the way your replied to my SMS's, i always write with a loving, caring, understanding tone, and all what i get are careless replies. If my loving girlfriend didnt understand my situations .. whom should i expect to understand me ?!

ALI : 7ayete Hope you are enjoying your time, love u, mwaaaah

RASHA : No i'm not

ALI : Walla inni b7ibbbbbbbbbbbiiiiiikkkkkkkkkkk. I wish i have some magic words that would get us beside eachother. I'm not enjoying any moment away from u

RASHA : Whatever!

ALI : I hate myself! U make me feel sooooooo guilty I just wish all those tears can prove how much I miss u and love u. 2alla la yroddon la my family if they will keep me away from u. khalas i dont care iza ra7 yiz3alo next time. I just hade seeing you mad at me, i dont care about them.

RASHA :No need to hate you family, and no need to cry

ALI : But I feel so bad making you sad

RASHA : I dont care

Then i tried calling you, and you rejected the call.

Anyways, i think this is just what happened several times before. You are mad from something, something else has bothered you, maybe something at he hospital today, or you just feel down, and 3am tfishhi khil2ik fini. if that's it, then i'm all yours to do whatever u want to me, hit me, kick me, hurt me, i dont care. What i care about is you not understanding me, and maybe not trusting and believing me that i really miss ua  lot, and i really wish to be with you every moment. You think you love me more than i love you ? u are very mistaken.

 Please bibi, if you are mad at something ow 3am tfishi 5il2ik fini, just let me know, for me not to get hurt. Tell me .. ali, something is bothering me soo much, and i'll be using you to get out all that anger. I wont mind at all .. but dont just do that without me knowing, because it hurts a lot.

Please never let me ever doubt that you trust me and you understand me ..

i adore u