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 To My Angel ....
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afraid, always afraid
This entry was posted on July 20, 2006 1:51 AM and is filed under uncategorized.
i'm always afraid to tell you some of my feelings, and thoughts, and expectations! simply because i'm afraid from your reaction, from the way you deliver your ideas, from you way you talk when u dont like what i say, or when u dont agree with what I say. You just reply as if what i am asking is internationally forbidden like those bombs israel are using to hit our beloved Lebanon.
I just want you to know that when I ask for a kiss, and when i discuss something that is more intimate than just a kiss ( u know what i mean ) then i'm discussing something which is simply very normal between loving couples. You might agree, you might not agree, and we'll everntually deal with our needs in a way or another. But please dont reply to me as if what i am talking about is something BADDD !
" and about sex thing i believe that even after 50 years of loving without any commitment i won't even like to discuss it "
" am just telling u coz oneday u will try to mention it ,even if u told me that u won't u will evantually ask for it ao from now am telling you not to even think abt it "
"and if that would ever bother u then it' sur problem "
I would expect those sentences from a far friend, not from a girl i see on street. I wouldnt even expect it even from a close friend, keef iza it was from YOU ! The girl i love, my girlfriend! I know that it's an intimate issue, andi know that it is really really frustrating for girls, but please know that i am not asking you for that because i know your restrictions and i respect them, i have to respect them. And as I told u, if i simply want sex, i would get it for few dollars .. without having to spend all that love and commitment. I was just giving an example if an issue which is usually normal to be discussed between couples.
I even feel bothered than i cant joke with you about such stuff .. inno come on it's fun... what's wrong with it if I felt free talking with you and passed some jokes heik heik .. inno from what i know from my friends, they joke about those stuff with their girlfriends, but are afraid to do it with their friends .. with you it's the opposite, i'm always afraid to pass some jokes, while when i am chatting with a female friend i feel so free and they accept it so easily and joke back !
Sooo .. all what i want you to know, it's not about kissing or having sex, it's more about feeling easy to talk with eachother, saying what we want without being afraid from the other person's reaction, which is my case. I hope to reach to a day where i'm not afraid to say anything to you, a day where i know that whatever i say, u'll just get it right, and u'll understand that such discussions, topics, and issues are so normal between couples.
Inno come on .. i LOVE my sister ! DO you think there is any difference between a sister and a girlfriend ?
mwaaaaaaaah .. adore u, thanks for being my love, and thanks for sharing your feelings tonight, and thanks for accepting my thoughts, expecially about the 2 way communication thing ( i know that you are always bothered from Ali's theories  ) hehe
loooveee uuuu
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